Why would calling me an incel help anything? How does that solve anything? Why can’t you actually be helpful and offer productive honest advice?

An incel would qualify for me if I ever pursed a relationship with the opposite sex. I have been able to find female counterparts in mental health facilities and drug treatment facilities. Where it's a closed, mixed environment. And eventually some crazy as me female begins some friendship that sometimes becomes sexual. I mean, even as looney as myself. I've met women at the lobby for weekend jail sentences and one ended up drunk messaging me to come over at midnight. Give me Xanax right away to chill nerves, drink some beer, play games, watch movies in her new bed. And then my plug ended up at the 25yr good looking girl I met in jails home one night I brought vodka and crown because nobody will get drunk with her. Lol just meth. So I said I'll get drunk with you. And passed around the bottle. My plug didn't like that, being forced to shot whiskey or vodka. They were crazy. Everytime her boyfriend was in jail she'd fuck this other guy. And then her sister and her boyfriend are chasing us around back roads in st Francis with a baseball bat. And finally at the resolution. He's like hey man. Yeah I fucked your girlfriend. And he was like. Ok. Alright. And it was stupid. But my plug told me if I ever get busted to point as Steve…Her sister's boyfriend wannabe drug dealer. Whatever that means.

I self sabotage on the regular. It's a permanent fixture. I'd walk around the city drinking from trash cans , abandoning all I have. I don't even have my SSI documents. Unneeded. My chosen representatives in the medical and psychology fields were incompetent to push through my paperwork. Some medical staff are more willing to push through correct paperwork to obtain disability.

Incel? I'm not too sure. I suppose I could attempt to meet some woman and see if I can get my b.o. body odor next to her and give her head. Is go for free head. Long as you can do it. Go ahead. Not sure who doesn't want that? But it's better with women. And I like to be lied to about them having an orgasm, especially if you can get 2 knocked out right away. Then why does it take so long for the 3rd? But it's only #1 for her sake. No, that's just with a familiar partner.

Scientists Stunned by Evidence of Ancient Birds Nested in the Arctic - The Daily Galaxy

Also each of the 3 women I first met while using dope did offer to have sexual contact with me without me having to really do anything except make it a fun environment, with money or cars or hotels or drug allowances. Even another one right in the middle of one.

I'm not in any position to be soliciting women sexually. I'm on a gay drug that gay guys use. However. Idk. Angela. Do I attempt to reconnect? She is easy paced. No worries about sex or the subject with her. She like eating pussy

But was also held captive for a couple of years in Arizona or New Mexico by a looney ex.

How did you respond to, "Why do you love me"?

Idk, I don't think I'm an incel in the way you describe it. I think I'm self imposing a life that appears from the outside to be of incel status. But I am not at a point where I think I should be involving myself with some woman not knowing all my retardations. I'm not able to be connecting with women sexually. If they see through it, their friends will. And I'm not a slick guy with words in the company of other women telling her friend not to date me. It's happened before with Jennifer, and what am I going to respond. Hell No. I'm the shit. I'm good ol Jason the guy who can take a bigger dildo than you in the ass. I don't take care of my hygiene, prefer not cleaning out prior to anal, but disgusting all the same, maybe some smelly chick is interested in making a nasty stink in a bedroom for others to come in and whiff as a joke. I think any woman would need to be an addict, currently drunk, or hopefully a nympho, nut I don't pay for it. And don't. Won't. Not in that way. In other buy drinks dinner drugs, just because. But not escort. I'm not doing that. It wouldn't even be funny. Her being so confused about what the fuck is wrong with this guy. Probably quit in the early stages. Lol. No, I can't do it that way. I'm not at that level where I buy my women for sex cashwise. You need some sort of skill there. Or money, lol.

I need an AHRMS worker, new psychiatrist, not a primary in the rural suburbs, and new professional support network. Yeah $2300/mo disability. Is that a future life worth exploring? Do I continue to do 1 or 2 month stints at my career. Do I find a horny female lawyer or other well off professional that likes goofy weirdos and sex? Idk. Contessa Knutson at breezy point? She like me.